You turned my Mourning...

Natasha is now going to speak to you, or try and speak to you my experience here so far. Overwhelming. In every sense. the air smells of a mixture of burning trash smoke, fresh pineapple, freshly rained on red red mud and so many more interesting and new smells. The sky has been a white overcast most days allowing the sun to disperse all over without beating down too harshly. Most days it has poured rain for about 20 minutes, not drizzled, but POURED. the way I've felt God's presence POUR out on me since the minute I stepped into the San Francisco airport. By calling this a mission trip, automatically I feel like I have to be constantly thinking and worshiping the Lord Jesus. Which isn't a bad thing to have to do. Being aware of the Lord of all creation at all times is the best thing for anyone of God's children. But, when I first got here I was nervous and God just told me to weep. Because Jesus wept. So low and behold, as Bri shared her testimony one night, the flood gate of my soul broke open. And I started weeping. I tried to hide it at first, but then God kept telling me to be OPEN. So I was and it allowed me to pray so clearly to our Heavenly Father. Throughout the next few days, God told me he will turn my weeping and sorrow into laughter. If you asked Kaly, last night I laughed so LOUD, so FULL, so BIG. I also told my whole life testimony to the girls and it was so nice to get all my life out there in the open so I didn't feel like I was hiding anything. The more vulnerable you are in any situation, whether it is in front of God or man, always brings blessings. I feel like these girls are my friends now. I feel the peace and comfort only God gives us. I brought my guitar on the trip thinking it would be fun to worship with. I didn't realize how much God would have me play it. If you knew me when I was younger I had the dream to be a famous singer. God is making that come true in such a good way. Everytime we go to a school to preach, Pastor Hudson Suubi (Hope) has us sing a few songs. So yesterday we talked to 4 schools, 8 songs I got to play. In front of hundreds and hundreds of students. The rest of the team was doing dance moves that the kids could follow along to. Describing standing in front of God's beautiful children, singing praise songs to the King of Kings and having them all lift their beautiful hands in unison is POWERFUL. God promises us that if we will humble ourselves, He will raise us up in due time. I feel like I have a purpose. I feel like God had me learn guitar for this very reason, to praise His wonder. The Lord turns our mourning into JOYFUL singing and dancing!